Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Reasons I'm Not Sorry

I have probably made more mistakes in my life than the average person (ok I have EPIC FAILED on some craaaazy levels), but that's okay. I have also had an impressive amount of success. Am I bragging? Hell yes. Do you know why? It's because I'm not sorry. Why should I be sorry or timid or humble about the achievements I made after basically coming up out of the ashes? I am proud of who I am today, and I think everyone should be too. When I have down days (and oh, boy are they ever present) I remind myself that I am awesome. I am good enough, and anyone who wants to judge me can judge away. In order to overcome those self esteem monsters, you have to flood your mind with positive thoughts. Even if you don't believe them at first. Eventually, I think the positive erodes away at the negative and things start looking up. It damn sure works the other way around. I am unapologetically ambitious and I know that in my mind it's all about me, me, me. It has to be. I can't take care of anyone else if I can't take care of myself. Professionally, my business IS my name, it's my brand. So yes, work is all about me too. You don't own your own company but you own your own attitude and you know what your strengths are. MAKE THEM YOUR BITCH!! I'm tired of hearing whiny status updates and people stuck in their mud puddles of misery wondering how this could happen to them. Who cares how it can happen, let's focus on how you're going to get up. Every single one of you was put on this earth for a reason, and being depressed sucks. I totally empathize. I have so been there. I visit there sometimes when I take a wrong turn and find myself in the dumps. This stuff is hard. Some days I want to quit, disappear, dive into a cave, cut my hair all wackly like Britney...but it passes. People judge. Let them. It usually comes from their own insecurity. Make your life a movie. Star in it. And f*** the critics who gave you a bad review. Write your ending. Live it. Make it negotiable. Never give up and realize that once in a while some characters, no matter what the history must be written out. This life is yours, so it is most definitely all about you. Take care of you, and your wife, mother, friend, life skills will automatically get better as well. I'm not a damn expert, this is my opinion, and this is something I have had to tell lots of people who come to me for advice. I just thought I would publish it because it's a time saver for the next time. Allow yourself a wallow period, but get up. Always get up. Always keep swimming.